When God Closes a Door...
...some way He opens a window. That is one of my favorite lines from my favorite movie ever, THE SOUND OF MUSIC. I think about inpirational words such as these and am often struck with doubt when pessimism has clearly taken me over. Window? What window? Show me where so I can tell you if it's a valid window or not. Does it look over blue waters or camel colored fields? Or is it blocked by a brick wall? Answers, I always look for answers. If you've read my entry about faith, you'll know how easily I've lost trust in ever finding that window that I know God has opened up somewhere. WHERE IS IT HIDDEN LORD?
Content, kind, friendly, outgoing, ambitious, intuitive, optimistic...These used to be words I'd use to describe myself on a job application. Now I'm looking at terms like bitter, angry, unhappy and fed-up to fill in the lines. What happened to me? I'm chatting with Cile online right now and, bless her heart, she's saying all that she can to release me from that awful cage of self-pity and self-loathing that I seem to be trapped in. I'm afraid I'm gonna be here forever! Is there help for hopeless people such as myself?
Saturday, January 31, 2004
Tuesday, January 27, 2004
Monday, January 26, 2004
SHE SHOOTS...SHE SCORES!!!!
My sister is the captain of the varsity basketball team at St. Francis and this past Saturday, my parents and I watched her play the first game of the season. We've watched their team play before and well, they're not pros that's for sure. They appear rattled and out of sync with each other a lot of the time. And this past weekend, when the score at half-time read 24-4 (they were 4), we were sure this game would end depressingly. However, there came a glimmer of hope after the opposing team scored 12 un-answered points. Tin's friend Lissette scored 4 minutes into the second half (they play two 20-minute halves) it seemed as if a fire had been lit right under them. One of the girls from the other team shot one into THEIR basket making it 36-8 and then the game for our Lady Knights really began. My sister had hooked it in for 2 more points, then followed it with a 3-pointer from her best friend Josie. Then they caught up until it was 36-23. They lost 38-23 but it was okay. They played their hearts out those last 15 minutes and our whole side was cheering until the buzzer sounded.
I know some of you think I like to punk Tin a lot, but you also know how amazed I am by her all the time. And that night, I was as ecstatic as ever that someone got a taste of her skills as a baller. Tin's a bit of an artist and she can be really quiet, but she's a jock, make no mistake about that. She had scored 11 points by the end of the night and couldn't be more excited at their performance as a team. Maybe next time the fire'll be lit right at tip-off, but for now, we'll revel that it was ever lit at all.
My sister is the captain of the varsity basketball team at St. Francis and this past Saturday, my parents and I watched her play the first game of the season. We've watched their team play before and well, they're not pros that's for sure. They appear rattled and out of sync with each other a lot of the time. And this past weekend, when the score at half-time read 24-4 (they were 4), we were sure this game would end depressingly. However, there came a glimmer of hope after the opposing team scored 12 un-answered points. Tin's friend Lissette scored 4 minutes into the second half (they play two 20-minute halves) it seemed as if a fire had been lit right under them. One of the girls from the other team shot one into THEIR basket making it 36-8 and then the game for our Lady Knights really began. My sister had hooked it in for 2 more points, then followed it with a 3-pointer from her best friend Josie. Then they caught up until it was 36-23. They lost 38-23 but it was okay. They played their hearts out those last 15 minutes and our whole side was cheering until the buzzer sounded.
I know some of you think I like to punk Tin a lot, but you also know how amazed I am by her all the time. And that night, I was as ecstatic as ever that someone got a taste of her skills as a baller. Tin's a bit of an artist and she can be really quiet, but she's a jock, make no mistake about that. She had scored 11 points by the end of the night and couldn't be more excited at their performance as a team. Maybe next time the fire'll be lit right at tip-off, but for now, we'll revel that it was ever lit at all.
Getting to know...
MARISSA LINDA MAE IGNACIO MORELOS aka IYA
History: Met August 1990 on the first day of 7th grade at St. Francis of Assisi School, then classmates for 4 years at Immaculate Heart High School = 14 years and counting
Role in my life: The Shadow I’m Always Chasing - You got a taste of this fact if you've read my entry about the perfect score that Iya got on our accounting midterm. She is seriously one of the most intelligent and together people I know. As much as we make fun of her "assertiveness" and her passion to make things right in her own scary way, I know it's only because we're jealous of her ability to know what she wants and her determination to attain them. I've admired this girl since we met 14 years ago and I think I always will.
Good Times: Stalking *NSYNC (one of her more unique hobbies). I’m talkin’ parking in front of the building where KIIS FM airs because we heard a rumor that they would be there, then following a suburban because we were SURE they were in there! (Done at the insistence of Ate Tin-Tin but still!). But my favorite moments with Iya will always be our innumerable conversations as we reminisce about our past, laugh and analyze our present and anticipate (and at times worried) about our futures =)
In her own words: With both arms in the air - “WADE!!!!! WADE!!!!” (We stood outside the place where *NSYNC had their album release party for CELEBRITY when Iya spotted Wade Robson. She was YELLING and SCREAMING as he stood there...5 FEET AWAY FROM HER!)
MARISSA LINDA MAE IGNACIO MORELOS aka IYA
History: Met August 1990 on the first day of 7th grade at St. Francis of Assisi School, then classmates for 4 years at Immaculate Heart High School = 14 years and counting
Role in my life: The Shadow I’m Always Chasing - You got a taste of this fact if you've read my entry about the perfect score that Iya got on our accounting midterm. She is seriously one of the most intelligent and together people I know. As much as we make fun of her "assertiveness" and her passion to make things right in her own scary way, I know it's only because we're jealous of her ability to know what she wants and her determination to attain them. I've admired this girl since we met 14 years ago and I think I always will.
Good Times: Stalking *NSYNC (one of her more unique hobbies). I’m talkin’ parking in front of the building where KIIS FM airs because we heard a rumor that they would be there, then following a suburban because we were SURE they were in there! (Done at the insistence of Ate Tin-Tin but still!). But my favorite moments with Iya will always be our innumerable conversations as we reminisce about our past, laugh and analyze our present and anticipate (and at times worried) about our futures =)
In her own words: With both arms in the air - “WADE!!!!! WADE!!!!” (We stood outside the place where *NSYNC had their album release party for CELEBRITY when Iya spotted Wade Robson. She was YELLING and SCREAMING as he stood there...5 FEET AWAY FROM HER!)
Sunday, January 25, 2004
WOOOOHOO!!
YAY THE LORD OF THE RINGS: THE RETURN OF THE KING WON THE GOLDEN GLOBE FOR BEST DRAMATIC PICTURE!! and Peter Jackson won for Best Director! all i have to say is, IT'S ABOUT DAMN TIME!! YAY!!!!!!!! LOTS OF LUCK FOR THE OSCARS!!
ok that's it. I spent the whole afternoon at a bridal expo today and i'm freakin' pooped! Two Words: SENSORY OVERLOAD!
YAY THE LORD OF THE RINGS: THE RETURN OF THE KING WON THE GOLDEN GLOBE FOR BEST DRAMATIC PICTURE!! and Peter Jackson won for Best Director! all i have to say is, IT'S ABOUT DAMN TIME!! YAY!!!!!!!! LOTS OF LUCK FOR THE OSCARS!!
ok that's it. I spent the whole afternoon at a bridal expo today and i'm freakin' pooped! Two Words: SENSORY OVERLOAD!
Wednesday, January 21, 2004
Eeks...
I just spent the last hour and a half catching up on everyone's blogs. And I wonder why I don't have a new job yet...It's because i still have to do my second application of the crest white strips thingy for half an hour.
Oh, thanks for spending lunch with me iya! I HAD TONS OF FUN! ...although, a root canal would be more fun than sitting in my desk all day answering assonine questions asked by people who obviously shouldn't be in the business that they're in!...breathe anna...
I just spent the last hour and a half catching up on everyone's blogs. And I wonder why I don't have a new job yet...It's because i still have to do my second application of the crest white strips thingy for half an hour.
Oh, thanks for spending lunch with me iya! I HAD TONS OF FUN! ...although, a root canal would be more fun than sitting in my desk all day answering assonine questions asked by people who obviously shouldn't be in the business that they're in!...breathe anna...
Tuesday, January 20, 2004
Baby I'm Yours
C'mon! Who knows this song by Shai? It's one of my favorite songs and to my delight, they showed the video on VH1 Soul when I got home from work today. The four guys are all chillin' and singin' a capella on the bleachers of Howard Univeristy. And guess who I realized is in that video? ANANDA LEWIS! Crazy! Anyhow, it's the ultimate sweet talk song. Just see for yourself (here comes another one of my lyric-based entries):
Baby I'm Yours
Understand girl that my heart is in your hands
And I'm cautious
Of falling in love again
So please don't hurt me, I'm scared
Don't desert me, I'm afraid.
Of being a fool, again
So Baby I'm yours, if you want me
And if you want my sweet love I'm yours
If you need me
Loving you forever, if you want me
Give me your love
Baby I'm yours, if you need me
Realize girl that my faith is kind of torn
So watch you step girl
Because my heart is weak and worn
So won't you please be careful, I'm fragile
I can't imagine the damage
I have to handle
If you hurt me one more time,
Please by mine
Baby, I've been through a whole lot of relationships,
Whole lot of broken promises,
But now I'm ready for a real one sweet heart
Yes I am
You don't have to worry baby.
Don't you every go away.
What a great, "Girl, I've got a broken heart to mend and I think you could help me" kind of song! What sap of a woman wouldn't tend to this pitiful plea?..especially if he looked like Garfield from Shai. He used to date Coco (the lead singer) from SWV. Okay, enough because if you get me started on these 90's R & B love songs I could go on forever about junior high and high school. So that's all...
C'mon! Who knows this song by Shai? It's one of my favorite songs and to my delight, they showed the video on VH1 Soul when I got home from work today. The four guys are all chillin' and singin' a capella on the bleachers of Howard Univeristy. And guess who I realized is in that video? ANANDA LEWIS! Crazy! Anyhow, it's the ultimate sweet talk song. Just see for yourself (here comes another one of my lyric-based entries):
Baby I'm Yours
Understand girl that my heart is in your hands
And I'm cautious
Of falling in love again
So please don't hurt me, I'm scared
Don't desert me, I'm afraid.
Of being a fool, again
So Baby I'm yours, if you want me
And if you want my sweet love I'm yours
If you need me
Loving you forever, if you want me
Give me your love
Baby I'm yours, if you need me
Realize girl that my faith is kind of torn
So watch you step girl
Because my heart is weak and worn
So won't you please be careful, I'm fragile
I can't imagine the damage
I have to handle
If you hurt me one more time,
Please by mine
Baby, I've been through a whole lot of relationships,
Whole lot of broken promises,
But now I'm ready for a real one sweet heart
Yes I am
You don't have to worry baby.
Don't you every go away.
What a great, "Girl, I've got a broken heart to mend and I think you could help me" kind of song! What sap of a woman wouldn't tend to this pitiful plea?..especially if he looked like Garfield from Shai. He used to date Coco (the lead singer) from SWV. Okay, enough because if you get me started on these 90's R & B love songs I could go on forever about junior high and high school. So that's all...
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