Wednesday, March 09, 2011

stalemate

[steyl-meyt]
any position or situation in which no action can be taken or progress made; deadlock
Synonyms include: Catch-22, delay, draw, gridlock, impasse, pause, standoff, standstill, tie

Well, there goes my 2011 resolution to write one non-Laker blog post once a week! What can I say? I'm a rebel =) All joking aside, however, I haven't been blogging much on this end because I haven't felt like I had anything remotely interesting to share. Then I thought about it for a bit and realized - when have I ever CARED that I didn't have anything remotely interesting to share? Almost NEVER.

In 2005, I posted 248 entries on this blog. Last year, 2010? 77. Oy. I haven't written in my journal much either. My writing habits lately have been reduced to the 3-4 times a week I get to write a Lakers post-game report, which I can't really complain about because, hell, I love doing it. But I miss just spewing the random inner workings in my head...like I'm doing right now. I miss this.

Sometimes I feel like I've hit a wall, or reached the valley, or whatever metaphor relates to feeling stagnant in life. I know that's not the case, because I've been busy with a lot of stuff. I guess I just feel like I have a lot of progressing to do; and not just with one aspect of my life - with EVERY aspect of my life.

I'm not unhappy or bitter. I don't walk around with a chip on my shoulder. And I'm not super overjoyed either, wanting to hug everyone I see and shout to the world how perfect life is. I'm just hanging around for the time being, re-evaluating the 33 years behind me and trying to look ahead at the same time. Is there such a thing as the 1/3-life crisis? If there is, I think I'm there. haha!

1 comment:

jdotldot said...

1/3 life crisis! haha

ive been having writers block too.. and i refuse to write about having writers block.