disappoint [dis-uh-point]
to fail to fulfill the expectations or wishes of; to defeat the fulfillment of (hopes, plans, etc.); thwart
Synonyms include: sadden, dismay, frustrate

If there's one feeling I'm the most incapable of handling, it's disappointment. At the beginning and end of it is that loaded word: expectation; or in disappointment's case, the total destruction or omission thereof.

For many, many, many years now, I have ered on the side of caution. My expectations of people, opportunity, etc are relatively conservative. I don't like "putting all my eggs in one basket." In other words, I hate expecting something and not getting it. I hate feeling happy about the possibility of something and not having it happen. Some people have accused me of being a pessimist, which I am not. Pessimism is the tendency to see, anticipate, or emphasize only bad or undesirable outcomes. I don't try to see, anticipate or emphasize anything, bad or good. I like to have an open mind about it.

There have been times, however, when something or someone comes along and you can't help but hope that it's something that will bring you goodness and happiness. You don't expect it, but you hope for it. In the end though, when the goodness and happiness decide not to show up, you're left with that awful feeling of disappointment. You start wondering if you had anything to do with what did or didn't happen. And then you have no choice but to ask God, quite literally sometimes if you're me, "What the heck was all that about?!" Then you stare as one door closes and pray that another one will open, and stay open for good.

God grant me

Serenity to accept the things I cannot change,

Courage to change the things I can, and

Wisdom to know the difference.

Living one day at a time;

enjoying one moment at a time;

accepting hardship as the pathway to peace.

Taking, as He did, this sinful world as it is,

not as I would have it;

trusting that He will make all things right

if I surrender to His will;

that I may be reasonably

happy in this life and supremely happy

with Him forever in the next.

Amen.

NBA Season Starts today!

And I can't wait to see more of this...

The quest for banner #16...LET'S GO GET IT!

New Laker Ritual

There's a new rule in the NBA that players on the sidelines aren't allowed to stand up. The bench used to stand until the first made field goal, but because of the new rule, they figured out something else to do. HAHAHA!

I've tweeted, facebooked and emailed people about it so why not blog about it? =)

So I saw a link to this article from the Philadelphia Inquirer on ESPN.com, and dude I swear...haters find every and any reason to hate on Kobe…even during BASEBALL season. The Phillies could be on the verge of a back to back world series championship, and this guy decides to write about what a douchebag Kobe Bryant is because he's rooting for the Dodgers. Classy…

My favorite line is,"Since Kobe is an L.A. guy now, I'll put it in terms Hollywood made famous so he'll understand: You never go against the family." Aaah yes...this is the same family who, when you won the MVP award during the All-Star game in your "hometown" of Philly, they booed you. Again...classy...

NBA 2k10: Kobe Bryant vs Derrick Rose

Aaaw, how funny!

"The greatest mistake you can make in life is to continually fear you will make one."
~ Elbert Hubbard