Ninang/Tita loves you so much!! =)

spasm [spaz'-uhm]

a sudden, abnormal, involuntary muscular contraction, consisting of a continued muscular contraction (tonic spasm) or of a series of alternating muscular contractions and relaxations; any sudden, brief spell of great energy, activity, feeling

Synonyms include: contraction, agitation, annoyance

Is it an age thing? Stress? Too much sitting at my desk? Too much sitting in my car? Too much getting up suddenly in frustration when Pau Gasol isn't rebounding? I have no idea, but I've heard and considered every reason. I've had a pain in my rear (back, that is) for almost two weeks and right now am refraining from too much ibuprofen and too much time on the heating pad.

I woke up a couple of weeks ago and felt this piercing pain on my lower back. I already know I have a questionable right ankle (despite the multiple procedures) and my head and shoulder area seem to be filled with tension every so often. But back pain - I'm not used to them.

It's funny what you take for granted, as far as your body's abilities go, when all the parts are working. For the last week or so, however, bending down to pick up the laundry basket is a chore; hell, turning around to look over my shoulder so I can change lanes is a pain. A fine line separates powering through the wincing and damaging something by accident so, I'm just watching myself.

I know I've said, "I feel old" a million times, and at 33, it's hard to imagine feeling so. But here I am, bad back and all. Time to find new ways to combat Mother Nature.

Geez, I could seriously make a whole album of just pictures of Bev sleeping! LOVE YOU!! =)

stalemate

[steyl-meyt]
any position or situation in which no action can be taken or progress made; deadlock
Synonyms include: Catch-22, delay, draw, gridlock, impasse, pause, standoff, standstill, tie

Well, there goes my 2011 resolution to write one non-Laker blog post once a week! What can I say? I'm a rebel =) All joking aside, however, I haven't been blogging much on this end because I haven't felt like I had anything remotely interesting to share. Then I thought about it for a bit and realized - when have I ever CARED that I didn't have anything remotely interesting to share? Almost NEVER.

In 2005, I posted 248 entries on this blog. Last year, 2010? 77. Oy. I haven't written in my journal much either. My writing habits lately have been reduced to the 3-4 times a week I get to write a Lakers post-game report, which I can't really complain about because, hell, I love doing it. But I miss just spewing the random inner workings in my head...like I'm doing right now. I miss this.

Sometimes I feel like I've hit a wall, or reached the valley, or whatever metaphor relates to feeling stagnant in life. I know that's not the case, because I've been busy with a lot of stuff. I guess I just feel like I have a lot of progressing to do; and not just with one aspect of my life - with EVERY aspect of my life.

I'm not unhappy or bitter. I don't walk around with a chip on my shoulder. And I'm not super overjoyed either, wanting to hug everyone I see and shout to the world how perfect life is. I'm just hanging around for the time being, re-evaluating the 33 years behind me and trying to look ahead at the same time. Is there such a thing as the 1/3-life crisis? If there is, I think I'm there. haha!